A good friend of mine made me up a nasal spray of OxyTocin and I have been researching the effects over the last two months. I wanted to be sure about my research before I reported on it. The bottle is comprised of 20 IU OxyTocin per 1/2 fluid ounce, mixed with a nasal decongestant in an inhaler. From what I understand most human research includes 24 IU (per dose) and as such my entire bottle is less than one standard human dose. A note about “standard” dose is what I have been told that is the current therapeutic dose for the treatment of Autism with Oxytocin.
I have been using the nasal inhaler now for 43 days and I am on my second bottle. The first bottle had a little spillage when it was being made, therefore I can only conclude the actual IU’s are skewed, but not by much. When I initially started I used three sprays 4 days a week and experienced dramatic interesting results.
Immediate was the suitableness of the drug as it coursed right to my brain. It didn’t act like a WOW effect, but it just kind of crept in. The feeling is more like I feel OK and I’m OK with feeling OK. I could tell that something was happening those first few days and yet at the same time it wasn’t overwhelming to any of my other senses. It didn’t make me feel any better when I disagreed, or was angry with another. However I did notice, almost immediately but even more so with continued regular usage, that I was starting to trust my own self. Whereas previously without the Oxytocin I always would doubt myself after an argument: maybe I was wrong, maybe I did do that, I shouldn’t have done that… The experiment brought me to understand the complexities of the argument/disagreement and as such I was comfortable with my viewpoint and trusted in myself enough to stand and make my mark in the sand. I wasn’t going to back down, I would admit if I was wrong, but I was realizing that I was right and it was alright to be right and even if this meant the other person was not OK with it, I had enough trust in myself to say its OK no matter what happens.
After a week of testing I went up to four sprays 7 days a week. I didn’t notice anything other than more trust and a propensity to want to trust others, but if I didn’t trust them or if the lost my trust then I would quickly anger with them easier. Not a violent anger, but anger about them not being trustworthy. I have been recording my calls with most service companies for quite a while so that I may gauge and judge their service departments and I was amazed to hear how quickly I became regurgitated by a customer service rep sounding bored or non-caring about my job.
AT one point after about three weeks of everyday use, the friend who asked me to test the Oxytocin asked me to stop cold and see f their were any adverse effects from stopping all of a sudden. I noticed none at all. However I will say that this batch, my second bottle, I am back down to 4 days a week and after this break (my thrid day today) I am noticing that I am easily agitated at almost anything. I have been feeling a bit ill and rundown these three days, but that variable might simply be coincidence and I would assume it would be since this was not a factor ever before.
On the one hand my trust and therefore respect in myself has increased exponentially, but my quickness to be judgmental of others who I don’t believe are trustworthy has jumped a notch. Where as before without Oxytocin I gave the benefit of the doubt to most people, now I trust myself more and perhaps tend to trust others, but am quick to lose that trust and count more on my own gut feelings. An interesting concept that needs to be explored more.
As of right now the jury is still out on continued use of Oxytocin as a ritual to build self-trusting. There is evidence in my book that the effects are beneficial, but I’m still a bit perplexed by my agitated state of recent, but as I already mentioned, there are many variables that could have thrown this off. I will continue to test and report back as I know more.
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