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Social Proof is only adventatious when it is used

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Nov 102008

Many of my readers like to remain anonymous, many to the point of not even posting comments. I find this practice to be a bit strange, but recently it was brought to my attention that I was doing the very same thing. Looking back at this situation I continuously put myself into I never would have guessed it in a million years. Sometimes hearing it from a different perspective is enough to open up our eyes at social failures and encourage us to overcome self-imposed obstacles.

On Friday night I was invited to a Memphis Lair meeting. It had been a while since I had been to the lair website and even longer since I had posted. Working on a forum all day can turn me away from posting any type of results, whether from Pick-Up or Pheromones, but in truth have found myself turning away from many things Pick-Up. To me reading field reports is mundane to my existence and I have been trying to surround myself with socially viable solutions that promise the most value for my buck. I actively read Roissy in DC, Thundercat, Bristol Lair, The Rawness and a few others that I find to add value into my life. Not that others wouldn’t add value, but personally I don’t have a whole lot of time to sort through the crap to get to the good stuff.

Like I was saying, Friday night I was invited to a lair meeting. Now please understand that I really, truly despise the word lair. By definition Lair means and underground place that an animal uses to hide. By the very definition it almost seems that those who ponder social realism’s and attempt to get that area of their lives under control would then by animals who hide. Those who seek to improve in their lives are not animals and should be ALPHA enough to never hide what they do or are attempting to learn. I actively seek knowledge from men and women alike on how to better interact with society. This has enabled me to grow as a man and thus prove more valuable to society, but more importantly myself.

I found myself straying away from those friends who I call friends and honor them by using their knowledge and feeding them knowledge likewise. Friendships are interchangeable leaps of faith in one another. My friendship with members of the lair has been challenged lately, but not by those friends, but by myself instead. I have grown and changed recently. My friendships with PUA gurus has also changed. I have contact with some of the greatest names in Pick-Up and daily calls and meet-ups. I travel the world, have a show in production stages and meet very interesting people, but who is it that keeps me grounded. All of my friends, like myself have faults, I know of no one that really doesn’t. Those who say they don’t show obvious signs of social-disorders and need professional help to free themselves of demons. One friend, and yes he is still a friend, is so caught up in himself he really needs to come down a notch as he is alienating himself from others.

But this is where my title to this blog comes in. Wasn’t I doing precisely this, alienating myself, from my friends in my Pick-Up group, by not posting reports or anything that would be considered value? By my incessant search for value myself, I was moving further and further away from those I have come to call friends. After all friendships are about adding value, without seeking reciprocity or anything else in return. Friendships is the giving of one self absolutely. I learned something in that meeting that I never learned from talking to master gurus over this past year.

Humility is important in life when you want nothing in return, but as humans is this really even possible? Can we really not want something in return for those things we do? I forget who said what, or even if it was said by anyone, other than myself. I learned a valuable lesson that night, if you want social proof to work for you, than you need to use the social proof. Prophetic, it is not, but how many guys really understand it. I bet right now there are many readers thinking they get it, but when time comes to go out and use social proof they end up use it wrong and thus not use it at all.

During the meeting I told everyone that my sticking point to this day is opening sets in bars. How difficult I find it to say anything to all those pretty young things waiting for the JunkyFungus to bed them. I explained that I have mad social proof in some downtown bars. I have slept with several servers in one particular bar and every time I go there I never use it to my advantage. It hit me like a ton of bricks at that moment. By the grace of the God of Gab I have been blessed with amazing charisma. I can talk to anyone about anything. I never have a problem talking to guys in bars, so why women? What social conditioning breaks me down and limits my social skills in talking with babes in a bar? No issues in BuckyStars, so why not the bar?

The bricks were heavy and left a mark on my intellect. I realized I wasn’t using social proof to my advantage and thus not using it at all. Whenever I went into the bar I always found a guy or two to creep in between and say hi to the bartender, whom I slept with and order some drinks. She is always so accommodating to my game and says crazy great stuff like I never loved you, I only used you for sex! Geez, talk about making things easier.

On friday I sought her out and just before I creaped in between two guys I found the tightest spot between two babes and wedged my way between them. I smiled at them and commented how tight the space was with a big knowing smile. My bartender came over and immediately gave me the warmest smile. It was like she knew what I was up to. She said I’ll serve you the drinks tonight, but you’re not allowed to talk to me and left. The ladies on either side must of thought something was up. My bartender came back and gave me my beer and then said that she was sick and tired of me seducing her and taking her home. She was tired of me using her like some type of trophy for the night and then never telling her I love her. great stuff. The sets on either side of me opened me. I didn’t have to do a thing.

All I can say guys if you can get a bartender or waitress to hug you or tease you about sexual innuendo, you will never have to worry about opening sets. Sure I got blown out of some sets, but not because I was timid about opening sets, rather I was seen as a player. Me a player! Guys use social proof to your advantage. It’s always better to have people interact with women than not.

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Expecting the Unexpected: The ALPHA Male is always prepared

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Nov 052008

Usually on Wednesdays I go out to downtown Memphis, to get my kicks on Beale Street, but tonight was different. Perhaps it is the work load I have been handling, maybe the anxiousness of the pending economic calamity that the press would have you believing, or maybe its that I didn’t go to bed last night until about 4 a.m.

I didn’t have the energy level to go to Beale, nor did I want to really. I definitely had to get out of the house though, and I promised myself that I would write a blog. I really want to keep up on my blog and a promise to the readers, I still have, I will do such. I know that I have said this before, but by all things good in this world I will honor my commitment. Lately I have been turned off by BuckyStars as the prices are just to high for this type of economy. On the same point, lately whenever I have gone to BuckyStars, apparently everybody else got the memo too, that its just to expensive to waste money on. Not to mention that, for the most part, their hiring practices have been less than desirable. I always liked the feel of walking into the local coffee house where everybody knew your name and welcomed you when you came in the door. That has just not been my experience lately there.

Resigning to the fact that I needed to get away from the whirr of the TV and the boring crap that’s always on, I decided to head out and give the old BuckyStars a last-ditch effort. Today was an odd day for me, I was showered early and out to the bank, but as with most days, my time is spent sitting in front of a computer monitor working on the Net. After a day of work, even though not labor or dirty, for some odd reason I find myself getting dirty from the Net. It seems like there is some type of electronic grime that builds up on flesh. The deeper I get involved in my worked during the day, the dirtier I get. Not sure really, what its from, but after ten hours in front of the Internet, my clothes smell, and I need a good hot shower.

Tonight was no exception, and yet as I said I felt tired and drained. Didn’t really feel like doing much, but I knew I wanted to get out. For a moment I actually debated about going out and just throwing on a hoodie and heading out the door. After all who would be at BuckyStars anyway? Nobody right! It really took myself looking into myself and observing my own actions (observing ones ego is a skill all ALPHA’s must have) to realize I was taking the easy way out. The ALPHA male is always prepared. Mom didn’t tell you when you were a kid growing up to wear clean underwear for no reason. She knew there was more to it than maybe getting hit by a bus. If you get hit by a bus, in all actuality you’re going to shit yourself anyway so clean underwear doesn’t mean squat!

Mom had that intrinsic juju that every woman has for ALPHA men. She knew that her baby boy could step out side that door any minute and discover the fascinating wonderful creatures they call woman. Mom was smart:) after all mom was a babe and she obviously had so much more social observational skills than any guy would ever have. Listen to mom, my brain was saying.

With a bit of trepidation that valuable blog writing time was wasting, I decided I would take a shower, don some clean clothes, PUA style and head on out the door. No excuses SteveO, you are ALPHA male and ALPHA’s always expect the unexpected. Dressed to the nines for a cup of coffee, even knowing full-well the only people at BuckyStars will be you and the angry gay-male Baristas. I figured maybe I would write about Barak winning the Presidency and ask everyone to pray for him and the USA. I jumped in the Beemer and headed out. I debated calling a few friends, but ahh I’d figure out something to write about. I always do and have been told I’m long-winded.

So I pull into BuckyStars and wouldn’t you know, one of my favorite Baristas is working. I was sure she had quit and I would never see her around again. Apparently they have a morning shift here too. I never would have guessed. Then to my amazement and happiness there she was. My Pixie friend from the other BuckyStars, they are closing due to the economic calamity I had written about a bit earlier in this post. I had been down there a few times and she just seemed to disappear so I thought she was gone too. Yup SteveO is dressed to the nines and she was like, wow every time I see you you’re always so stylish. IOI? You damn tootin it was.

Funny thing I was so enamored into talking to my favorite Barista I just kind of ignored her, which totally worked in my favor. No sweat though, before long the whole place was laughing and wouldn’t you know my favorite Barista would DHV me. She asked me how the filming was going for the production. Pixie expected me to elaborate on it, but SteveO was just like, yup it’s busy and hectic and by next year it will be in full production. Not to much info, but enough to peak curiosity.

I had my blog title and it’s an important one guys. Always be prepared, regardless if you’re going to the convenient store, gas station, laundry, whatever, make each impression your most important. Always remember the first impression begins with you at home in the mirror. Just imagine if I came out feeling grimy like I wanted to before. None of this would have happened. Things fall into place when you prepare yourself for everything, just like mom used to tell ya.

That’s certainly not the end of the story with Pixie either. The store has been streaming with babes all night and many of them know me. Pixie is wondering, just how does this guy, who is always so well dressed and styling happen to know everybody that comes through that door? She just told me she gets a break in about 6 minutes, so I will finish by saying, I’m going to get to know Pixie a little better on her break.

And I thought he was really a smart guy. I was wrong!

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Nov 032008

So the other day I happened upon a friends house late at night, or early in the morning, depending how you want to look at it. It was a night that I only had a few beers and my game was really on. I managed to progress my life forward in the recent months and it was shinning through when coming to game. A couple of things I have done is grow my hair out and really amp up on my health and nutrition. If you are in need of a great couch who has been there than may I suggest Andrea Allbright from www.AmazingBodyNow.com. She is a class act and gifted teacher.

I managed to end up at a friends house for a while and this is a guy who I thought was really smart. I have come to understand that in his dialect with others, he will make comments about people right there. I don’t believe it is done maliciously, but all the same I wonder what he gets from it. It’s like you can be sitting there and he and his girlfriend will comment about your intelligence to each other, not recognizing the fact they are doing it in front of you. I read a blog by TheRawness recently about his European Trip recently that reminded me of this behavior. It’s not quite the same, but very similar.

I guess some people think that their intelligence is so much more advanced than others that they actually predisposition themselves to believe in their own hype. I’m not claiming to be better than others, only that I have been around the block and I am smart enough to recognize insults that are under the cuff.

We were all talking about interesting people and somehow the topic of Roissy in DC came about. Now if you don’t know http://roissy.wordpress.com/ than you need to follow the link and read up. The blog is brilliant and yet simple in its thought process. Very clear and understandable and to me, one of my favorite blogs on the net today.

So BAMM, all of a sudden my friend, goes on this tirade that he doesn’t care, and not to link him the site, because he would end up reading it, disagreeing, and end up being right! Holly wow, talk about being closed minded. He tried to justify his position, by saying that too many people send him links and they all turn out the same. I simply said, I guess you have been hanging out with the wrong type of people. With that said it was time to go.

I left a bit bewildered and I guess we all have our moments, but the outrage of this man believing so much in himself to close off any and all incoming data as wrong, before it is even presented is just sad. I valued my friends input always and liked to listen to what he had to say. What bothers me most is not so much his inequities, but more that the information he is presenting as truth cannot be taken as such, especially knowing that which I do now.

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Making Excuses! Sometimes I just don’t get myself…

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Jul 252008

I went out with my friend last night to the Roof Top party at the Peabody hotel for some entertainment purposes. Basically that means we went to pick up women. Normally I do very well and use any approach anxiety I might have as a adrenaline rush to push me into talking to the very thing I fear. It works well for me and I have been getting very good at what I do.

So last week when I went to this party I got very drunk off Jaeger Bombs with my buddy. I met some cool people and had a grand old time. It was odd because I didn’t want to drink that night and yet I did. A lot at that too. I spent $40 bucks on Jaeger shots at $2 a pop. And then there was the wine. Lots and lots of wine. Regardless of not wanting to drink I did drink and got very drunk as I have pointed out. I was a bit disappointed in myself that night, but we live to fight another day.

Last night I went and I said I would only, maybe have a few beers. I did and yet for some reason I just stood around and picked only really easy sets to open. I wasn’t making excuses about it, that’s the weird part. I just didn’t feel like opening anybody and yet I know this in itself is an excuse. I knew exactly what was happening and even at one point said to myself and catalyst, my wingman, that I was comfortable.

Who wants to be fucking comfortable when there are babes everywhere? Sometimes my mind just wins out and I sit there and lose. I get frustrated when this happens especially when I tell myself that I need to pull out and get the job done. All day I psyche myself up to do the job and meet women. Anyone who has known me at all for any length of time knows I surround myself with beautiful women. I know I am a good looking guy and yet in my head some wires are fizzling and shorting out.

I think I have come to understand now though that perhaps I am my own worst enemy by trying to psyche myself up. I should just let what happens happen. I know I shouldn’t go out drinking and sarging as this is too easily done. I can pick up any women when I am buzzed, but I want to be able to pick up women when I am not. I need to be the same charismatic SteveO I am when I am doing th interviews for the show. It can be done and it will be done.

The Long Awaited OxyTocin Report

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Jul 172008

A good friend of mine made me up a nasal spray of OxyTocin and I have been researching the effects over the last two months. I wanted to be sure about my research before I reported on it. The bottle is comprised of 20 IU OxyTocin per 1/2 fluid ounce, mixed with a nasal decongestant in an inhaler. From what I understand most human research includes 24 IU (per dose) and as such my entire bottle is less than one standard human dose. A note about “standard” dose is what I have been told that is the current therapeutic dose for the treatment of Autism with Oxytocin.

I have been using the nasal inhaler now for 43 days and I am on my second bottle. The first bottle had a little spillage when it was being made, therefore I can only conclude the actual IU’s are skewed, but not by much. When I initially started I used three sprays 4 days a week and experienced dramatic interesting results.

Immediate was the suitableness of the drug as it coursed right to my brain. It didn’t act like a WOW effect, but it just kind of crept in. The feeling is more like I feel OK and I’m OK with feeling OK. I could tell that something was happening those first few days and yet at the same time it wasn’t overwhelming to any of my other senses. It didn’t make me feel any better when I disagreed, or was angry with another. However I did notice, almost immediately but even more so with continued regular usage, that I was starting to trust my own self. Whereas previously without the Oxytocin I always would doubt myself after an argument: maybe I was wrong, maybe I did do that, I shouldn’t have done that… The experiment brought me to understand the complexities of the argument/disagreement and as such I was comfortable with my viewpoint and trusted in myself enough to stand and make my mark in the sand. I wasn’t going to back down, I would admit if I was wrong, but I was realizing that I was right and it was alright to be right and even if this meant the other person was not OK with it, I had enough trust in myself to say its OK no matter what happens.

After a week of testing I went up to four sprays 7 days a week. I didn’t notice anything other than more trust and a propensity to want to trust others, but if I didn’t trust them or if the lost my trust then I would quickly anger with them easier. Not a violent anger, but anger about them not being trustworthy. I have been recording my calls with most service companies for quite a while so that I may gauge and judge their service departments and I was amazed to hear how quickly I became regurgitated by a customer service rep sounding bored or non-caring about my job.

AT one point after about three weeks of everyday use, the friend who asked me to test the Oxytocin asked me to stop cold and see f their were any adverse effects from stopping all of a sudden. I noticed none at all. However I will say that this batch, my second bottle, I am back down to 4 days a week and after this break (my thrid day today) I am noticing that I am easily agitated at almost anything. I have been feeling a bit ill and rundown these three days, but that variable might simply be coincidence and I would assume it would be since this was not a factor ever before.

On the one hand my trust and therefore respect in myself has increased exponentially, but my quickness to be judgmental of others who I don’t believe are trustworthy has jumped a notch. Where as before without Oxytocin I gave the benefit of the doubt to most people, now I trust myself more and perhaps tend to trust others, but am quick to lose that trust and count more on my own gut feelings. An interesting concept that needs to be explored more.

As of right now the jury is still out on continued use of Oxytocin as a ritual to build self-trusting. There is evidence in my book that the effects are beneficial, but I’m still a bit perplexed by my agitated state of recent, but as I already mentioned, there are many variables that could have thrown this off. I will continue to test and report back as I know more.

Bored On Beale! An Epithany

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Jul 212007

Massentropy and I, like every Friday night, went down to Beale street. There were some sets there, but nothing too spectacular. I opened a couple, but all-in-all it was a lackluster night.I think maybe it could have been better but the energy level was less than optimal, which will always bring down the sarge. This can be tied directly with doing the same old thing day in and day out. It’s not that Beale Street is a bad sarge place, or for that matter a club like Senses, it would just seem to me that PU is the skill of social dynamics.

Social Dynamics IMHO, is not something you try and fake or become, it simply is you on your most basic levels interacting with others on their basic levels. There are no smoke and mirrors, it’s just two persons talking as they would to anyone else. It to me is the beauty of the system that got me into PU.

The naturals all go out and just talk to people, they do not try to assume this identity of something they are not. It is called natural game, because they are being the fun friendly person they are. They don’t assume the role of the collector and lover of widgets because their target does. They express their interest or distaste if that is how they feel. It’s not about becoming someone else and masking who you are, it’s about expressing your true identity and becoming that person completely, take it or leave it.

Canned routines are OK to get the ball rolling, but once you are in set your natural identity must shine forth. It is you after all that is the prize and you must be that prize. I look at it this way: A shiny green apple (By all things squishy and pink I love green apples), plumped and perfect on the outside. It’s inviting you to take a big bite out of you. Enticing you to sink your teeth inside of it. You begin to salivate thinking how once you bite into it, you can hear the cracking of the skin, the juice exploding into your mouth and dripping down your chin, ahh heaven.

Wait a minute, did I tell you a family of worms has made their home on the inside. So while it looks great on the outside, whats on the inside is uninviting and nasty. So I ask myself am I being true to myself by attempting to go out every Friday and Saturday and be that guy? Maybe not, maybe I should forget about being that guy and just be myself and go forth as who I am. I enjoy going out to the clubs and having a good fun night dancing and being crazy. I enjoy people for who they are and always through life I’ve had lots of female friends who were just friends. I am going to focus more on interactions for friendship sake and evolve my game from there.

I believe that by realizing this paradigm, that I have evolved. I am not a PUA, I’m SteveO, OZZY Osborn and I am a man of the world. I have High-Value and all I have to do is be myself and my natural game will shine through and I will achieve the desired results I seek.

I realize that there are skills that I know, super-powers if you must, but they are skills of using your persona to break through others defenses and be recognized for the value you give. I have to stop trying to be a PUA, while using PUA skills and be SteveO, Master of My Universe.

Inner Game

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Jul 172007

You might have read that in order to have a good game you need to have a solid inner game. To most extents this is true, but some would say to get a complete control over your inner game first. This to me, is false and can lead to a confused PUA with no game at all.

There are many things you could do to build your inner game up, but unless those steps are applied to real life situations are you simply spinning your wheels? I was reading a post on VAH forum that is interesting and got me to thinking on the progress I have made and what steps I have taken.

When I first started in PUA I originally bought David DeAngelo’s Double Your Dating eBook and it taught how to be cocky and funny which in turn built confidence in myself. I remember many years ago (source unknown) reading a paper on women and overcoming shyness. I was never shy with anyone, but I did always have a self value issue. I believed that anyone who could be so beautiful would have to be better than me. This paper I read dispelled that belief by telling me to smack my ass. The feeling I get from smacking my own ass is exactly the same feeling Paris Hilton gets from smacking her own ass. Albeit I have a nicer ass and the blue ribbon to prove it! Of course the analogy used another models name as Paris wasn’t even alive yet, but you get the picture.

I think back now and all the work I have done and 25 years later for the first time I recognize how correct those words actually were. There is a natural progression to human development and for me it was reading DeAngelo’s eBook that changed my life. I was always funny, and knew intrinsically that if I could get a girl to laugh I could get into her pants.

The problem with this ideology is that while laughter is always a commendable trait to carry, it is not by itself a way to a womens panties. No my friends, comedy will get people laughing and get you the reputation of being the funny guy, but without confidence it is simply comedy.

By instilling cocky into the mix and for the first time understanding why I actually opened up a doorway. Just the cocky comedy wasn’t enough though. You can be the cockiest/funniest man alive but again without confidence it means nothing. I new I was on the right path, but I could feel the lacking inside me. My inner game still put women on a higher value than myself and something needed to be done.

I don’t believe I would have taken the plunge and bought David DeAngelo’s Deep Inner Game if I didn’t truly seek change in myself and knew it could be done. The 7 DVD series was a long and arduous journey that began my quest to like myself. It was the first time I can remember, EVER, in my life actually sitting back and liking myself.

I ask members of our lair how many of you actually like themselves? It seems like it would be such an obvious answer, but dig deep and find the answer. Some of you are lying to yourself and others about who you are and what you are doing. It’s easier said then done my friends. So again, sit down and ask yourself if you like who you are?

Another instance of my development has come in being a wingman for my friends. I have learned so much from observations. Again there was a time in my life I was so in despair with who I was any type of IOI from a woman would throw me into a jealous rage if someone else tried to hook up with her. She isn’t my property, I don’t own her. I was so filled with weakness that my mental picture already drawn out was me by myself and her with someone else. After all I believed she had higher value than I.

It’s amazing the progression I have made as a man. DeAngelo’s Deep Inner Game is not recommended for those who are seeking a quick fix. It is a journey that requires work. Work that unless you commit yourself to before you begin will not help you. If you are one of those people who sink money into products in the hopes that your purchase will motivate you I highly recommend you do not buy this product. It’s not for you.

Very soon after utilizing the tool box of Deep Inner Game I remembered that paper I mentioned earlier, the one about smacking your ass. For the first time in my life I took a long-hard look at who I was and what I wanted. I didn’t like myself! It was the most difficult thing I ever did to look in the mirror and stay there and pick out my qualities that I did like. As time passed I began to see a different image of who I was. After much soul-searching I began to emerge as a confident man.

My confidence was earned in my own actions. It took every fiber of my existence to recognize those things I didn’t like about myself and change those feelings of distaste into feelings of complete worthiness and love for myself.

Are there things I would change about myself? NOT A DAMN THING! I love me…

In recognizing the love and adoration I have for myself I begin a new journey where things that aren’t necessarily healthy are changing anyway. I have a weight issue, that is a part of me, but I do not dislike my weight, no in-fact, I love my size, but by loving myself completely these things that I used to strive to change will change anyway. I just have to be me and love what I do, which intrinsically triggers a reaction that provokes healthy change inside of me equaling a greater sense of pride and confidence in myself.

I began to read everything I could about self-image at a very young age and I believe that self-help books can be a detriment to ones own self worth. Our personal images can spiral out of control if by reading self help books we keep telling ourselves that we are not perfect as we are. If we are telling ourselves that we can change and need to change than by proxy we are saying we are not happy who we are and thus cannot unequivocally love ourselves.

The difference in reading books and trying to change is many books have you start and finish on the inside. I believe this to be a fallacy! You can read until your blue in the face, but as Mystery himself preaches, the work is done in the field. Books add structure, but unless you are willing to go out in the field and apply you will fail. When PFC and I talk about failing to succeed I think we erroneously portray our learning from failures when they are not. Success is not bread from failure, it is bred from the strength of going out prepared to find every conceivable way not to do something so the true way to success becomes self-evident.

When we are in set we do not fail, but we learn how not to use a FTC so next time our FTC is stronger until such time as our FTC is perfected. This is not failure by any standards it is success built upon the confident man challenging himself to succeed whatever it takes.

I challenge lair members to ask yourselves if you love yourself. Look in the mirror and tell yourself you love you. Did you say it with meaning?

The next time you see a beautiful babe you want, don’t get AA, just smack your ass and realize she will feel exactly the same thing if she smacked her own ass too. Now visualize you smacking her ass and approach.

You can use many of the tools available to work on your inner game, but truthfully it all starts inside with you recognizing where your faults are and falling in love with those faults. Recognize and love them and they will change themselves.

Respect

Two Steps – One Step

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Jul 142007

So PFC and I were talking today about some progress I have made and some steps backward I have taken.

Lately I have noticed over the past few weeks that I have been approaching less sets. Where as in the past I would approach massive sets, but found myself getting g blown out of most if not all of them. Where now I approach less sets and manage to stay in set longer and observing myself in real time. It takes strong inner game to be able to catch yourself doing something incorrect and immediately correct it.

This has brought me to the conclusion that my two steps forward and one step back wards actually strengthen my game in that the one step of progress becomes more solid. In each step that is accomplished it becomes more acknowledged in the successes of that step.

It is not regressing, but it is making solid gains.

The Stars Were Out (on her breasts)!

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Jul 052007

PFC, Massentropy and I had planned to go downtown and do some Sarging since Wednesday was a holiday. We figured there might be a crowd so we took the chance and headed out.I arrived at Massentropy’s house and his car wasn’t there and the lights were out so I went to call him when PFC called me. He told me that Massentropy would be hooking up with us later. PFC asked if we could ride in the jeep cause he had a large piece of steel protruding from his tire. I have an old ass Jeep, that has no interior lights, dash panel, hell even the stereo stopped working. It’s obviously something shorting out the electrical system somewhere in the fuse box.

PFC gets in and unbeknown to him about my electrical problems he goes to turn on the dome light. I explain the troubles and with a smile I say at least she still gets me around. Well with that said the truck won’t start. After some serious prayers and tinkering with the battery cables I get the old beast started. We head on down to Beale.

There weren’t a whole lot of people down there but we did end up opening some sets. The ones we could find anyway. PFC opened a girl who just moved down here from Detroit who had two gigantic Red and Blue stars tattooed above her breasts, hence the post title. I stayed in the set just so I could watch PFC and get an idea how he plows forward. He did great and truthfully it was as simple as a standard conversation, like two old friends chatting away.

He Facebook closed her and we moved on. We met up with her again later by chance and this time her sister Georgiana was along. I would say she was a 7.5, she had a nice body. Anyway I opened her and it went very well. There was even a point where three AMOG’s came up to them and hugged the two sisters while standing in between them. I used the social violation theory and said something like hey no hug for all of us. The dudes didn’t know what to say so they ejected. One of them while he was walking away said I’ll hug you, and both PFC and I said you’re not our type. They were speechless as they left.

It was very cool to hear the sister actually apologize to us that it had happened. I really didn’t care. We moved the set to the Saucer and I kinoed Georgiana all the way. Once we got inside is where I lost her. I need to work on my comfortness in being with a woman in a social gathering and not feeling awkward.

For the longest time I was a jealous AFC who hated having other guys talking to the girl I was with or trying to hit on. So when we got to the Saucer I watched a guy start talking to Georgiana and I had to tell myself no big deal. It was the first time that I really just didn’t care at all. I was comfortable about not caring. To me that was a huge breakthrough. The only thing that happened after that which is a sticking point is not only do I not need to care, but I need to learn to get back into set and plow forward. I could have closed that set easily so that’s a sticking point.

I did very good that night and know I made some great progress. There was also the door girl at Silky’s and singing with PFC in the bar and street. I danced and was jovial whenever I entered a place and it made the difference.

I also opened a server at Perkins and plowed further than normal. It was a lot of fun. Anyway I’ll be out there tonight.

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