I’ve been operating this blog for many years now. While the first post archived is from April of 2007, this blog goes back several years before that. Unfortunately do to a mod gone haywire and failure to backup at the time several years were lost. I’ve come to the proverbial crossroads in my life where I know what direction I am to go, and the path will always lead me to the road less traveled but all the same, the choice looms in front of me.

I find myself wanting to apologize for the lack of months upon months of seemingly disinterest when it is far from the reality. I have been going through something and while it seems as if my posts have vanished, in retrospect, I needed this time to get myself in order.

The good news is I’m back and even if I have to comment on everyday stupid stuff, by all things Pink, Squishy, Wet and Warm I’m going to comment. Enjoy:)

I’ve been thinking about writing but I do so much of it at my job, that I sometimes just don’t have the ambition to blog anything. I’ve changed over the last year and now I do quite a few things differently then I used to. I have decided to do some serious gaming though, so that should add a bit of flair to the diary of a junky. It infects my life and sends me into bliss so that I may not escape. Ahh life is tremendously good right now for me. I am in such a good place with myself.

Sorry for the slight delay, I have lots of projects all happening at once

This part we cover: The value of EGO and being selfish. Words and actions that make us very much who we are and how to successfully navigate through life. We all have advantages and disadvantages in our lives. Some are born with tremendous opportunity in a particular area, but that does not negate the value of someone not born with that particular opportunity. Having an EGO is good and needed.

How does the effects of addiction like heroin, alcohol, smoking change our brain chemistry? We learn a valuable lesson from Shiva how we are all simply human with vulnerabilities and as such will make mistakes. Understanding this allows us to comprehend what guilt is, and as such the ability to forgive ourselves and make lasting change. This powerful segment shows awakens an inner sense of just who we are and how we interact with others by allowing us to see not just the world, but the lens we see the world through.

In this segment of the Harnessing Inner Game Interview with Shiva of www.SGMS.info we discuss how your conscious and subconscious mind is at war with itself. We learn how to forgive ourselves and the impact that denial has on us. Discover the truth about your instincts as a human and how our actions, regardless of our intentions can do damage to others.

This part of the interview Shiva starts to tie together his Monkey Brain theories, ideas on the functions of guilt and how we interact socially.

In this episode we learn how to forgive ourselves, meerkats, reese monkeys, reptilian brain and dopamine. All good stuff! Social attitudes can dictate our sense of who we are and yet, we have the ability to make decisions that impact our lives. The most important part of this section is that our impact is not just of our own lives but the lives of everyone we surround ourselves with.

I just heard a funny thing, literally like just this minute. Someone actually thinks my David Carradine post was about anything other than what it clearly states. There are bad people and if we all work together to expose them the world would be a better place.  Not sure how that associates with them or their purported gripes its about something that they think its about, but that comes from vanity.

It always amazes me when people try and decipher words rather than just read them for what they are. I will say this though, this is the JunkyFungus blog. If you don’t like it your only option is to NOT read it. Really that simple! Friends can be more dangerous than enemies…

I’m headed to paradise for a couple of weeks. No MacBook, no IPhone, no connection with the angry people of the world. Only love and light, happiness and peace. I am also glad that through open, honest communication people can make another connection.

Last night I couldn’t sleep and I ended up not at all. I’ve been up for 24 hours now, maybe even more and when its dark its dark. I found out about Master Kwai Chang Caine who traveled the Earth, or maybe it was just Los Angeles, seeking justice and peace for all. An embodiment of what every boy desires and other movie greats aspire to be. Even Jules, in Pulp Fiction, sought after that internal eternal peace that eludes so many of us:

Jules: I’ll just walk the earth.
Vincent: What’cha mean walk the earth?
Jules: You know, walk the earth, meet people… get into adventures. Like Caine from “Kung Fu.”

We all seek this, and for many different reasons, however I believe most of us seek peace from that which haunts us. The proverbial skeleton in the closet. I do know that all of us have these skeletons and they take shape in our appearance, how we speak to one another, the way we treat others and even how we go about to hurt each other. It’s unfortunate that there are people, sad people, who go about life with misery on their shoulders looking to gather those around them who are miserable, but they don’t stop there. Misery does love company and sometimes its about making others miserable around you so they can always keep in company.

Everyone who knows me, knows that I will bend over backwards to help a person out. I am good natured, always smiling and as the saying goes “Happy Go Lucky.” I believe and practice the Universal Law of Attraction, except maybe I call it God, the Omnipotent all loving force that gives onto those whatever they desire. I desire love and happiness in life!

Then we have those who strive to look for the conspiracy, who look for the bad, who seek out the injustice, the ill, the poor, meager and weak, but not so they can alter their surroundings and make it right, no these are the ones who dwell on the bad. They are the ones who feed off of badness and evil, the ones who call each other names and wish ill will towards others. The irrational, the degenerates of the world who hide behind pretty looking lies that are encrusted with jagged broken glass dripping with the filth of their pitifulness. They are wicked in their intentions and look to bring others into their rotten existence.

These are the ones who strive to bring those who achieve greatness down. They are the ones who take up positions of imaginary authority to bring others down. I know very many who serve in the military for noble reasons, I know police officers who serve to protect, civil servants who go about helping and living a life of poverty to help others elevate theirs. Then we have those who take these same positions to punish the weak, enslave the poor, to bring misery company. Their Misery! I do not concede to allow you to destroy others and I vow with all my heart and soul that I will shine my light, the light of truth and justice in your oh so dark corner. Your decrepit shallow hole in the world, illuminating you for what you are, so that all may see you and know that your evil shall not prevail. I will walk the Earth and promise that happiness and truth are my mission statement. Conform to the will and the light of justice or wither and die your pitiful selfs.

They spread their lies and hatred as if it were truth. They manipulate and deceive with words believing they have impunity and for too long to many of us have not brought them to justice. The crusade, my crusade, our crusade begins. You will be exposed and I do believe you will slither on your belly away.

David Carradine was a man. A man who played the character of a great man who walked the Earth bringing justice and enlightenment wherever he found injustice and darkness. I was so saddened to hear that his demons, escaped his closet and brought a tragic end to his physical life. My prayers and love go out to his family. I hope with all my heart that he has found his peace. I will miss you my friend, you brought a smile to my face and that I will always be grateful for. There are others who deserve the justice of the rope, there are others who I would have rather seen swing from the gallows pole. Wicked, wicked people…

I’ve been doing it, I really have. I think it took some awful intense times in my life, but I have said enough is enough and made the change. I ask myself whenever I do something now is it going to take me towards my goals. I am eating healthy, exercising and on the path to self-reliance through health. I finally figured it out that I needed to hit rock bottom before I could start climbing back out. I hit that rock bottom and now the climb is in full momentum. One step following another and it takes me forward on the path to my goals.

I know the direction I must go, and I am on the path, but the question now comes up with other things. Am I in the right forest? Sure I am heading in the right direction but this compels me to ask myself where else I need to make the changes that will ultimately lead me in the direction of my goal.

In the beginning of this year I set a goal that I would make my first million dollars and somehow I seem ever distant from achieving that goal. I know the universe is supposed to unfold before me and my job is not to limit the universe presenting that goal to me, but I also know that I am supposed to focus on achieving that goal. This is where currently I am struggling. How is it I am supposed to be focused on that goal driving myself ever closer when things around me get tougher and tougher.

With my health I know how to achieve it. I can control the foods I eat, the exercise I do, the lifestyle I choose, but with finances it seems so much more impossible, especially when things are not where they need to be. The economy sucks and it is directly affecting my lifestyle. With everything that’s happening I have to ask myself if staying the course is going to pull me away or help me achieve that success I desire.

I wonder if anyone has any thoughts on this?

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