For quite a while I considered myself a PUA and I guess I might still be. It’s something though, that as of yesterday started to bother me a bit. On the forum that I admin a member who I have a deep respect for called me a PUA and when I kind of down played it, he again called me a PUA, but the emphasis was on the artist aspect of it. So I really had to sit down and think this one through last night.
When I initially went out I was really in state, I was going to meet me a hottie and not to mention the hottie I have been working on at the Saucer. But, and it’s always the but that gets you, I completely lost my state and ended up with low-energy and actually pains in my body. My fellow friends were astonished at my low energy state and I guess it was with good reason as I am usually very passionate and exciting. I have a lot to talk about and get people interested in me, by being interested.
Today I again was soul searching, trying to figure out what went wrong. In retrospect it could be inner game issues I’ve posted about before creeping up on me again. It could be approach anxiety creeping into my game. It could be that I was just super-tired, but I think I have figured out what went wrong and in doing so have made a quantum leap in my game. You see I have never though of myself as a PUA, as I’ve always felt that was a bit creepy. I’m not out to meet women and get laid. I am out to experience life and all its magic splendor. Sometime that road will lead to getting laid, but hopefully more often than not, its the interaction itself that ignites that spark in me.
Ever since I have started doing Pick-Up I believe I have lost something. I don’t want to go out to just meet women anymore, I want to go out and meet people. I want to stop using acronyms that are meaningless to people unless they are a part of the PUA cult/religion. I hate the word sarge and lair, yet I find myself constantly referring to it. I am just not interested in being a PUA as much as I am a really cool guy who likes meeting new people. When your going out to meet people do you really get approach anxiety.
I remember very clearly how massentropy and I would go to Bealle Street and figure things out, but we would approach everybody. I don’t think there was much anxiety about it, as much as there is today. Perhaps I in pushing myself to exceed personal boundaries I am pushing myself in soliciting responses geared towards Pick-Up rather than having interesting conversations. Pushing myself for the wrong reasons.
I am a Life Artist and I live life to its fullest. I am pulling away from using weird little cult like acronyms and I’m just going to go out to have fun. No pressure Junky, just fun. Life is good and I believe I get what I want and I don’t want the pick up anymore. I want solid life interactions.
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